Feeling the fall

Really exhausted with all these that’s going on.

I was informed on the printing day, that it will officially be our last issue as the management decided to discuss further on how to proceed. That did not come exactly as a surprise, but it definitely way too sudden!

While I’m scrambling over my ground to find what to inform clients and agencies while awaiting the management’s black & white directive, I made a mistake by promptly telling my clients take note on possible changes – as it was apparently, it is not firmed. Yet at the same time, we were since told to give in our resignation letter for this company, only to be absorbed into the main corporation, but isn’t that a wee bit tricky? Shouldn’t the management actually come up with a letter for us all to say that we are being “absorbed” instead of asking us to give them our resignation letter?

All in all, I wasn’t too happy with how things went about but it was definitely a slap in the face to be told that I did not perform with sales in less than 3 months period – which caused the ‘possible’ closure. Of course it didn’t make much sense to me, but I guess I do matter that much to cause such drastic result, being the only sales-person left within that period.

Perhaps everything is very clear to my management but I just don’t seem to understand much is going on still. Here we are told to give in our resignation letter, the next minute I’m told that we may still continue with the company… Okay, that means they want to ‘fire’ the entire team only to start OVER AGAIN a few months later?

It’s decided. I must be really stupid because I still don’t comprehend much what is going on.

Office Days = Blues?

Well, not really though I must say, it's almost!!

Let's start with the //Blues\\

Life hasn't been exactly "beautiful" in the office with my executive leaving in less than 2 weeks, finding out that my writer will be leaving in about 1 month as well... and not to mention that my company seems to be rather "slow" in hiring with these as reasons:

- there isn't anyone suitable in the market. We only want people with experience so that we wouldn't need to train them

My response : *I rather you get new graduates as they more likely to stay than leave, especially with the current situation we are in. Lack of human resource!!

- your sales team aren't making that much to cover the expense of hiring

My response : *Dude, chicken and egg story la! You don't hire enough, how to hit target? Like, seriously?

And one of the few things that really annoys me is this, "You have not been hitting your target or getting sales in from the time you are here. It's been 2 months now, it's not a short period nor long. But I'm expecting from you, 'cos you are a smart lad."

Okay, thanks for the 'smart' part, but seriously... 2 months is not a short period? Okay, too many internal things that affect my performance which I wouldn't state, but I do feel it's unfair somewhat. Which do makes me go *hair-pulling, teeth-grinding* at times!!!

Now to the **~*beautiful*~** part

I do have freedom of time in my hand. The best one that I love best is, I can be late for work... like 10am or straight to appointment and such... and work with my laptop outside the office!! That's because sometimes it's really inconvenient for me to head back to office. If I'm out in Damansara Uptown, it will take me 20mins to get back, which isn't that much of a time-efficient matter indeed. Of course, of course, I do work late occasionally in office as well!

Though no doubt that it can be really crazy, where I had a few occasions work til 2-3am for a few days in a row at home because there just too much to be done. Once it's settled, I'm free and slouched again.

Ultimately, it's only the freedom of time that I really love about this.

In the end ~

I decided that I will continue in this job. Just do my best without risking my health (you have no idea how I can get sick, like ultimate sick once two weeks!) and take the flow as it goes.

It's my job, but at the end of the day... as long as I'm paid and I'm happy as happy goes... why not?

PS: Advertising line indeed is one of the most stressful job ever!!